I made the effort to talk to girlX, an got one word answers. So I gave up. Eventually, she was fed up with not talking to me, and started talking to me. I guess I win.
She irritates me though, it doesn’t matter when someone else is concentrating, but when she is, it’s the most important thing in the room. :@
Its nice though, last exam is over, I will see her during 6th form induction, and then that is it. All summer, well that is until she’s bored with her friend, then see will come find me again.
No more exams; no more GirlX
Gahhh
I cannot start to explain how angry I am.
For some reason GirlX has suddenly decided to be in a mood with me, and then decided to blank me.
I don’t know why, but shes just being a twat. Talkin to a mate, who realised, and talking to my mother, I decided I am not going to say sorry. I tried talkin to her, and she just turned it on me.
So.. fuck her basically.
One exam left. 
Tattoo?
Recently I’ve been contemplating getting one, just a small one, like a heart on my bum, just to see what it feels like.
But then curiousity and tattoo mags have gotten the better of me, and I’ve considered drawing up a design, to cover my entire bum, simply because it’s a things I will have done for me, so not visable to others.
I know how I want it to look, and i can only, currently, give a vague description. A swirly, tribally, flowery, leaves/ vines, dots, shading, heart, key, bird, dice, hourglass, thistle/nettles, quill, latin (most probably “cogito ergo sum”), scales, music score, with the emphisis on the flowers, but I wouldn’t want it over crowded..
WIth the symbolic elements of it only a small part of the entire design.
My theory is correct.
A few days ago, it occured to me how my theory that GirlX only made friends with her friend she fell out writh to replace me, was correct.
I am staying at hers for a few days soon, as she doesn’t want to be alone, but as there are a couple of days, non consecutive days i can’t be there, she invites her friend.
That just makes me feel better about myself though.
Moving on, things with BoyX are hard at the moment, and I just want to make them good again, but things are strained. With him away so much, I try to treasure the time I spend with him by not bringin up issues bothering me, so it all tends to come out mid week on the phone, which causes problems, are the cycle is again repeted.
I really want things between us to work, as we have been together for 500 days now. And I really do think I love him.
In an ideal world I would go to York uni, get my psychology degree. Marry him, buy a house have kids, and love happily and comfortably. Most of which, I highly doubt will ever happen.
I am really starting to worry when I see on the news stories about iraq and afgan, as I know in november time BoyX will be going out. The reality of it, and to me, now its not just a news story, but it could be a story that in a few months will be affecting me. And I know I will worry and fret everyday, and everytime there’s a story on the news about it my heart will skip a beat, and i will hold my breath, even for only a second, until I know my boy is still ok.
Purgatory?
GirlX has shown herself to have a caring side, which almost makes me feel guilty about how i think of our friendship.
And as for BoyX I don’t know where we’re going, I can’t trust him, which makes us argue which makes me worry, then it kinda goes full circle, I hate this.
But I know I have to try to ignore my jealousy because it’s obvious its causin us problems, but hes just fueling my jealousy.
If we were a married couple I would have suggested marridge councilling.
IOW FESTIVAL
Got my tix and I can’t wait!!
Ooh and look at the map:
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And the line up?
On fri:
Kaiserchiefs
NERD
KT Tunstall
The wombats
Joe lean & the jing jang jong
The answer
On sat:
Sex pistols
Ian brown
Iggy and the stooges
The zutons
The enemy
Kate nash
The cribs
Amy Mcdonald
One night only
Black stone cherry
On Sun:
The Police
The kooks
James
Starsailor
Scouting for girls
Newton Faulkner.
Delays
We see lights
Proximity effect.
Also can’t wait to see feeder!!
Got my festy hat..Will eventually post up, but its gunna be ace!!!
Exam stress makes girlX stressy
Really, really irritating too.
Whiney, whingy, and annoying.
But..Discussing the maths exam, I found I did questions she couldn’t. hehe.
But, going to the festy with her soon.
Aaand staying at hers for a few, but it should be a laugh, a pissup 24/7.
Pfft
So, once again apparently my exams aren’t important.
This morning she forgot her book for the exam, essential to sit it as it is needed for reference, and to quote. So she went on and on bout how she’s gunna fail etc and talked straight over me and everyone else.
Anyway, I think It went ok.
But GirlX was on and on about how she’s gunna o Psychology in uni and where she’s gunna go and what she’s gunna do etc, its pathetic, a unrealistic dream, and bloody annoying.!!!!!
Exams
Apparently, mine aren’t as important as hers. So her mock exam, was more important than me real, actual exam.
Oh well, I beat her in art, I got 4 more marks…So nearly a grade, and personally I believe mine to have been better anyway.
The other night, girlX rang me, apparently I was upset, and she knew it, so spent 20 mins playing the good samaritan. Pffft!!!
Final post of the day.
I was sat in car and I had the strange thought that: When sat in a car with someone talking/ the radio on, when listening to your ipod the songs sound like people singin right into your ear.
Over and out.
